For what I've done

Its really strange how someone you never knew growing up or through high school can become your closest friend and ally in life. I guess its even more uncommon when someone can claim this about two people. When three people come together and are there for each other at all hours of the day and night and will selflessly sacrifice to help one another, a bond is made that I am willing to bet is shared by only a small number of people in this world. To be a part of this bond is something that every person needs at one point in their life, but few are ever lucky enough to actually get it.

Everything I've done, from hurting to loving to helping the people around me, each thing has shaped me and made me who I am today. While I am not always proud of that person, or what they do or have done, I am very thankful for the friendships they have made and to whom they have confided in and given support to, as I am equally thankful for their support and friendship as well.

Falling farther than I ever have before...

Way to go me. For probably oh, I dunno, the 7th or 8th time in about a month, I've deeply hurt one of people closest to me. I care for them very much, and despite my best intentions I get bogged down in the here and now and let them fall behind time after time. I don't want to lose them but if I keep this up that's exactly where I'm headed. I hate hurting them, but at the same time I don't even notice or catch myself doing it until it is much too late. While it may seem like a lame excuse, I feel like I forget things way too easily and never remember what needs to be done or what needs to change until it is again too late.

I don't want to keep doing this. If anyone has any ideas or would like to help in any way please do. I need help.

War Damn Tiger?

I kinda feel like I just beat up on a retarded kid... after all, these people can't decide if they want to be tigers or eagles... and on top of that, rather than normal team cheers, the Auburn fans have a tendency to scream and grunt using guttural sounds. For example, once such cheer is called Bodda Getta. To this I say, WTF?! Weagl weagl war damn Eagle... thats like trying to find something that rhymes with orange- it doesn't really work! Then again, I can't say that I have ever seen an orange eagle, so hey, whatever works. But that is all completely beside the point. And that point is,

AUBURN LOST TO MISSISSIPPI STATE!!! 19-14!

Oh poor Auburn. After all that hard work and painfully planned interceptions, to go and lose to MSU... I personally feel that honorable suicide is the only remedy for this situation. And not only that, but after two consecutive losses to football teams that don't even come from *real* schools (cough USF cough), I might even be so bold as to say that if they don't remember what the hell to do when they have the ball, they may end up *Gasp!* losing to Bama. At which point I don't even need to say what will happen to Tommy Tuberville (what kind of a stupid name is that...) Shula, anyone?

I'm a loner in a catastrophic mind...

Yeah... that pretty much sums me up right now. Props to anyone who knows what song that line's from. Anyway, enough sobbing. On to tonight's topic.

So I'm in Auburn right now. MSU plays Auburn tomorrow and I'm not quite sure what my take on the situation is. I don't want to be optimistic, but despite our win and Auburn's loss last week, we are playing the team that blocked our field goal attempt last season... so, like I said, I don't want to be optimistic. Who knows, maybe we'll score, maybe we'll win, maybe we'll take it up the ass again. Whatever works.

Anyway, I'm not up to talking anymore tonight.